NIKE
Greek goddess of victory.
She gradually came to be recognized as a mediator between gods and mortals. When depicted on her own, she was often a winged figure hovering over the victor in a competition.

I've come to realize that I always have trials, but that I easily move on because my lack of a long term memory. Recently though I've been more contemplative than usual. It may be because everyone around me is having a difficult time and come to me to vent.

So now that I'm reminded of how difficult life is, I can't stop asking myself questions that I can't formulate answers to . . . not yet anyways. Winston Churchill offered good advice to those that do enjoy an endless memory "Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm". I guess I can adapt to Winston's optimism by reminding myself to not loose enthusiasm along with when I remember why life is so difficult.

Although I'm not usually focused on opposition, I'm not always filled with optimism or enthusiasm for life. Some ask "who is?". Well, I used to be. My emotions used to be in black or white. I was either so sad to the point of crying or so joyful to the point of generating light. I don't know if conventional wisdom considers that healthy . . . or bi-polar, but I liked it. Mostly because I felt fulfillment - something I no longer feel. I have no difficulty in providing action to my intentions. As for my current situation though, it's deciding what my intentions are that baffles me.

I used to have a goal but it's slowly dying. No one is taking it away from me necessarily, but I'm holding onto it and not really loving it anymore. And I don't know why. Maybe I'm too stubborn. I've always fought to do what I love. I've fought family and friends. Just thinking of the opposition I've faced infuriates me. I don't know . . . maybe I need to set my goals higher. Maybe I need to dream things that never were and go from there.