Enjoying self-loathing

I just wasted the past hour on the Internet. It felt good. Ignoring responsibilities and forgetting about time is becoming a common theme in my life. It creates odd feelings inside me, it is quite nice and at the same time there is this overwhelming feeling of self-loathing that I have for myself for wasting time. I've weighed the costs and benefits and I can't come to a decision. I know what's better for me, but that part isn't that important. Suggestions?